The Abstract Sex Rituals

There are different types of black holes, they come with different characteristics, they are pulling different types of attributes out of the male. The way I created my black hole is through the following sex ritual.

My sex ritual, with that I created my black hole and my understanding of the universe, requires spontaneous unexpected cheating. When I switch to automatic control, so when I don’t actively use my logical thinking, which by now becomes too boring to use, when I use my abstract thinking and switch to automatic control then sometimes unexpectedly I just go run cheating out of nowhere.

It’s like I want to discover the unknown and see what my girlfriend is going to do then. Like how is the current state with her and her friends and me, what happens when I just go run cheating, what is going to happen then exactly?

So it’s like a discovery of the unknown. The reaction then is usually that she goes cheating as well which then would be fair, the calculation would be then 1 = 1, so that I cheated, and she cheated, so it is just 1 – 1 = 0.

But what I usually do then is instead of having normal sex with my girlfriend, in the beginning we had normal sex until it got boring and the regular beginning love feeling faded, and then we switched to an alternative style of sex.

So first I go cheating, then she does the same which then would mean its equal, but then I do alternative style of sex with her, which then creates a strange calculation, because now she cheated on me and I didn’t have normal sex with her, I only had alternative style of sex with her, that would usually make me jealous.

But I was cheating as well, so I can’t really be that jealous then. It’s like because I was cheating it is protecting the male ego to not get too jealous and to not have the ego completely destroyed and to trigger the big bang, I can’t really be too jealous, but I only had alternative style of sex with my girlfriend, so it is really not clear if this is now all equal or if there is just a hair thin slice or increment or decrement for the male ego.

So the logical part of the brain then has problems to understand what is going on. The calculation is a bit different then, it is then the following and this will lead then to the strange black hole with time reversal:

1 = 1 – abstract factor <=> time reversal.

Like is this ego neutral or is this a little bit less or where exactly is the ego now. And because the logical part can’t really comprehend what this is doing now, and when then the ritual gets repeated, so that when the guy goes cheating then again, the girl is copying it and then the girl gives the guy the alternative style, instead of normal sex that she did with another guy, when this is repeating then it creates a stronger and stronger and increasing gravitational force which comes unexpected.

It is unexpected because the calculation is so unclear, and then when it gets repeated and repeated then there are the small increments and the gravitational force increases until it gets so strong that the guy then gets fully fused to the girl with all alternative needs removed, and it puts him back to a virgin with full fuse to the girl and with infinite hate but with a low priority which can just be ignored, but which results in the infinite need for cheating.

The infinite need for cheating is in direct opposite to the gravitational force, and when the gravitational force gets strong enough then there is no cheating any more, because the gravitational force is stronger than the need for cheating.

And the cheating is creating an increase in the gravitational force, but it is not just simple cheating, it is cheating with quantum entanglement, so the girl is copying the cheating and then the guy gets alternative style of sex from the girl and that’s the whole process, which then creates the strange black hole which has a second characteristic and this second characteristic is pulling all alternative needs out of the guy.

It removed the alternative needs from the guy because they are getting attached to the way that the male ego gets cut with thin slices. So all the alternative needs are getting connected to the painful experience of his girlfriend cheating, which then connects all alternative needs to a painful experience, painful in a sense that his male ego got sliced with this, and then it removes all alternative needs from him and only leaves the original needs back to straight virgin.

It’s like the male ego is then nearly broken in two ways, first by the cheating and second by the alternative style of sex, so the male has then to fix two broken male ego attributes. So the male ego has two attributes then, it is not actually a male ego, it is not the right word for it, it is much more than the male ego, because building a male ego would not fix the black hole, so it’s more than that.

But the male has then to first fix the impression his girlfriend has that he only wants this alternative style of sex, like he has to first establish the reputation for his girlfriend again that he actually can also fuck normal like other guys did with her, but because she was cheating, it also pushes him to do cheating, and then it ends up with the guy cheating with all other girls in a normal vanilla style and the whole setup has temporary states everywhere, but it is fix and stable and pretty much unbreakable as a whole.

The whole setup has a lot of different forces with their own real specific laws which grow in different ways and show their relations by doing the small decrementing alternative knife cuts, until it is all total fused and back to the beginning and there it is then fully fused and fix.

But talking about it and realizing what is happening is then enclosing the emotion again, and then it turns everything back into a simulation and the emotions disappears, and normal life is back. But the full experience is still in the back of the head, and there is no additional learning to be gathered from the feeling of the black hole alone.

It is the experience, the entire process of the small increments little by little which then result and this unexpected and strong gravitational force in the very end, it is this experience and this full process which gives the full insights and the fact that at some point the cheating stops and the gravitational force is getting stronger than the push for cheating coming from the alternative style of the black hole, which pushes to cheating but pulls to the girl and at one point the pulling to the girl gets stronger than the pushing for cheating.

Talking about this emotion then in the end encloses it in the logical world and then the emotion gets disabled and is not important anymore, there is nothing else to learn from the pulling force in the very end alone, and this is not a special or important emotion, it is in the very end still just a nearly broken male ego which is actually embarrassing to even talk about this or to have something like this so once it gets realized what it is then the logical part encloses it and the nearly broken male ego just gets put away, because it is embarrassing to put so much focus on a nearly broken male ego.